Pathetic

I’ve decided I really should just forget.
Let someone else try for a change, I need to stop trying to be a part of something that I was never asked to be a part of.
Its pathetic and I’m falling.

Thoughts

I've officially been knocked off my pedestal.
For the past few months things have been so amazing, I've been so happy so inspired but lately things are different.
And just now, I've officially fallen.
I had that thought again that urge to do something I haven't wanted to do in soo long.
I hate these thoughts that used to run threw my mind every 5 minutes and I hate the fact that now their back in my head.