Basically, I'm done with blogspot.
As of last night, I made a new blog where I can put all my thoughts and shit.

I'll keep this one up but I'm done posting here.

The new blog:

http://catchallthoughts.tumblr.com/

Tomorrow will be my first time smoking in months, it just goes to show that cigarettes aren't as addictive or at least not as much as they say because I had no problem not smoking. Oh well, I need tomorrow though. I need to forget some things for a while, I need to be care free.

I was reading an article today about one of the two most recent teen suicides just a few minutes ago and it brought me to tears.

I haven’t cried over any of them until now. The article had a part of his suicide letter, it talked about how he thought this was his only way out. Silly me, I’m actually starting to cry as i type this. Those words… his words, I relate to them so much. I was there, I could have been one of them. In all honesty that’s the way I have felt for years, even when I said I felt better out loud inside I never really have. I won’t be one of them though, I have dreams, lots and lots of dreams that I want to see threw.

I just feel so alone all the time.